Heart - Emily

Morning ladies!

I feel like I have to add an addendum to my email from last week... this book makes me totally cringe in regard to my past. I was 100% Wild the end of high school/beginning of college; so when she reminds us that the 'wild woman' can be in our churches.... yep, that was me. I know first hand what it's like to say all the right things but maintain a life completely opposite and against God's ways. Oh the grief I've stirred in my own life and, sadly, the lives of others. {{Needless to say, I will absolutely be having my girls read through this book in their teen years}} And yes, even now there are parts of my mind, heart and emotions that still have 'wild' tendencies, but I am getting better and better at recognizing and confessing them.

I have a lot of things underlined in this chapter, but I think what stands out the most right now is Mary's description of a girl her son should be looking for (pg. 26) "...does she bubble over with Jesus...?" I wonder what people see bubbling out of me? I know Jesus is not #1 in my heart and mind as much as He should be but I have an increasing desire for Him, it's a work in progress. But sometimes it's so easy to let the things right in front of us get in the way... diapers, cooking, cleaning, socializing, etc.

Matt 7:21-23 "Not everyone who says to me 'Lord,Lord' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my father in heaven..."

** Oh how I want to enter the narrow gate!! I don't want to just look like the 'general christian population', I want a crazy love for Him that saturates my whole entire being; laying down all of myself so that He can overlay His plans for me (whatever they might be).

I know by continually seeking Him, He'll keep working in my heart! I am so thankful for His great grace and patience with me.